just decided i'm going to go ahead and skip tomorrow's finals (systems analysis) because my mind is completely burned-out
so i have 4 finals to take on february/march/may; two of them being relatively easy (this one and physics I) and the other two living nightmares (calculus II and statistics)
plus next year i'll be taking operative systems, which anyone studying computer science or engineering knows is THE final boss of the whole plan because for some reason some fucktard decided to teach fucking everything you needed to know about operative systems in four months. in which you not only need to destroy your brain with all the reading you have to do but you also have to suck C's dick to program some file transfer shit that'll only work on linux.
now onto another random topic: yesterday i read this article someone posted on /x/ about a harlequin that was stalking some dude, and out of nowhere i began to feel really light headed. i always feel like i'm being watched, been feeling like that since my childhood (which is why i have the tendency to talk out loud when there's no one around) and the feeling gets stronger when i sometimes read about the paranormal. not always though. if i'm alone and there's nobody around to keep me "grounded" so to speak, i then begin to feel like my mind is slipping out of my body. i don't know how to describe it, but it's like suddenly it's working twice the normal speed and it feels like part of me is somewhere else. it's a weird feeling. i need to get constantly distracted, or else i fear i'll begin to slip away.
i bought luis royo's malefic. his art is kinda cool, but damn that guy can't draw a face even if his life depended on it. when i went to sleep i saw his landscapes in my head, they all have this crazy nineties feeling to it. i fell asleep then woke up and fapped, and when i cum i usually see landscapes or people in my head, and this time i got this image that was a crazy rendering of beksinski's and royo's art. all dark reds and post-apocalyptic heat, it was awesome
Listening to: i'm with you . rhcp
Reading: house of leaves